Wednesday, February 27, 2013

The Old Man and The Rain...

Yesterday was my sweet husbands birthday. And not just any old birthday..oh no...the big four oh. That's right...my husband is officially over the hill. I have been giving him lots of shit since the beginning of the year....you know..."hahaha this is the year. This is the year that you break the seal. It's all down hill from here. OMG...was that a hip I heard breaking? Is your hair grey yet? Wanna go pick out a cemetery plot?"...shit like that. Thank goodness that I have...well...let's just say...thank goodness he's OLDER than me so I can get a few jabs in for awhile before it's MY turn. And it rained here today, which always makes things good and soggy (especially when it's February, and cold, and icky anyway)....so we decided to hold off on celebrating until this weekend when we could gather up the entire fam and eat cake and party like aging rock stars! Woo Hoo!!

That said....I want to take a minute to deal with some nitty gritty ugly truth. ONCE AGAIN (see Fathers Day blog post)...we are at a momentous occasion in my husbands life. And ONCE AGAIN he has been forgotten, and ignored, and well...HURT...by his children. (although I think he is starting to lower his expectations a tad.) And while I think that they are old enough to accept some of the blame...they are learning by EXAMPLE. You see, they are learning that every relationship they encounter needs only be one sided....take take take. They could have called. Or emailed. Or...Heaven Forbid...sent a card. This date isn't a secret....I don't expect that you broadcast it...but the children should KNOW it. And they should acknowledge it...and HIM...especially on dates of major significance. I'm not getting into his responsibilities, (or yours, or ours)..or HIS failings and shortcomings (and, believe me, I know he has them)....this is about his feelings. And playing nice because it's a special day. The other stuff is for another blog...another day. So don't bring it up...(and this is my blog...so I make the rules)...
We make every effort to go out of our way for your children. I post very special and heartfelt letters to them on MY social media on their birthdays...even changing my profile picture to one of them. We aren't flush with money (and we have extra bills to pay now, thank you)...so that makes gift buying extraordinarily difficult, but we CALL them....and we make a point of sharing their day with them and reminding them that they are loved. Why then is it so difficult to show the same kindness to their father? And...as I said, while I do place some of the blame on them because they are old enough to make decisions...I mostly blame YOU. Because you should know better....and you DO...you just don't care.
It wouldn't have been hard to make an effort either....we are friends now, remember? Or I thought we were.  I would have gladly provided you with our current address (seeing as we have moved recently)...or the children could have sent a message on my social media site and I would have been more than happy to have passed it along to him. Although, the last time I checked...I do believe that all of you had his current email address.....
But, this isn't about you and I. It isn't about our friendship and how we choose to express it and where it goes in the future (although after this blog post, I'm guessing nowhere.) It isn't about you and him and your past and how you feel (or don't feel) about one another. And, oddly enough, it isn't even about you. It's about him and his relationship with his children....which is vitally important...and which we BOTH should be working to nurture. (And since we both know the pain of absent/missing fathers..I would think we would have common ground here.?)
So, I guess what I am saying is...what I have been saying all along. All relationships require give and take. And when the only giving that you provide is hurtful....don't be surprised when the taking stops. But, also, don't be looking for continued gestures and goodwill. A heart is only so big...and while I know he loves his children more than you may ever comprehend...I don't know how much more he has to offer them. Especially when they give him nothing in return.
(I'm really not trying to be bitchy or mean...and I'm not looking to start drama. It is what it is. I just think that we all need to be aware of the impact that our actions..or non actions...have on others. It's a crazy world we live in...we need to fill it with all the love and hope we can muster....whatever the cause or occasion or reason. And we need to know that we did our very best by the ones we love...because life is wicked short and regret is heavy baggage.)

Rant over. Wishing a super Happy Birthday to my husband. I hope it was amazing. I love you.....always. Even if you are one foot in the grave. And incredibly old.


XOX

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Snippets Of Snark, Smarm, and Intelligence...

For some...unknown...reason, I was glancing back through my Facebook posts the other day. Not only did I find that I am HILARIOUS (a fact to which, by now, you should all be painfully aware.)...but I learned that, on rare occasions, I make a whole hell of a lot of sense. And I almost sound smart.
So...in my infinite and unbridled wisdom...I decided (OK...my bestie Lou said "You should totally put them together in a blog post! That would be amazing!"...so thank her.) to compile all my favorites into one really crazy long "best ofs" post.
A look back on some of my finer, smarter, wiser, more cultured, and certainly funnier moments from the past. Via social media. You are very welcome.


Moment of the day....watching Rudolph with my family. Me: "Aww...the Island of Misfit Toys." Her: "What's wrong with the elephant?" Me: "He's polkie dotted." Her: "So? I would play with him.".......I love her misfit heart. .

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I am sitting here this morning reviewing my wedding vows....
worse-check
poorer-check
sickness-check
That leaves 'till death do us part'......death could be imminent.
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Oh Monday...you sick twisted bastard.

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Tonight’s conversation...me: they should follow us around with a camera and make a show about our lives. Him: What? The Divine Comedy? Me: Ummm..that's about a trip through Hell. Him: And? (Followed by laughter)...Dammit...I hate so much when he's right. .

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I believe in reincarnation. I think it's kinda like Karma. You give good, you get good, you come back good. You give bad, you get bad, you come back as a Dung Beetle. Or a fly. That eats poop. .

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I was thinking about writing a soap opera. But I got stuck on a title. And then overwhelmed by the realness of reality, I curled up on the floor and cried until I quit. But that was terribly unsatisfying, so I drank a cup of coffee and thought about writing a soap opera. .

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I've done a little reading today...here are a few things everyone should know (in my humble opinion): Trust your gut. Never talk politics with your in-laws. Learn the difference between compromise and complacency. Shower the people you love with love. Be present. Be engaged. Be willing. Don't be intimidated, or intimidating. Be authentic...even if it's hard, even if it's unpopular. And always remember this above all: To thine own self be true. (Thank you W. Shakespeare for the finale.) .

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Too many of us are hung up on what we don't have, can't have, or won't ever have. We spend too much energy being down, when we could use that same energy – if not less of it – doing, or at least trying to do, some of the things we really want to do.
~ Terry McMillan
Kinda goes along with what I was saying last night. We try too hard to be something we aren't, to impress people we shouldn't, to live lives that aren't ours. We need to be authentically who we are. And DO what we want to do. For that is where we will find happiness.
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Yep...people are basically bitches. And we could spend our whole lives blaming everyone else for why
we are screwed up. We could talk and talk and talk. OR we could grow up, own up, and talk up. We could realize that life is unfair, accept the blows, and start over. Stop blaming and start doing! .
Stop talking about what everybody has done to you and start talking about what you can do for somebody else.
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(Unless you think you're extra special....which you are not. We all screw up....some of us more than others, but you know....forgiveness is forgiveness. If I'm willing to give you mine...let's hope you've learned enough to do the same. If you haven't...well...then you don't deserve it.) .
None of us are without fault, we all make mistakes. But if you can't forgive others for their transgressions, why should you expect to be forgiven for yours.....???
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(And even if they could....they're too busy blaming everybody else. And they don't care.) The people who hurt us can't pay us, won't pay us, and the check would probably bounce anyway. So be honest...do we really want payment....or do we want peace? Let it go...or spend your days making collection calls. .
Let God pay you for past injustices. Don’t try to collect from the people who hurt you, because the people who hurt you can't pay you.
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A person susceptible to 'wanderlust' is not so much addicted to movement as committed to transformation. ~ Pico Iyer 

My heart has finally settled.....the time has come to work on transforming the soul. Letting go of the wanderlust...allowing the settling. Letting go of the anger...allowing the peace. Letting go of the hate...allowing the love. What are YOU committed to transforming within yourself? Remember...the path to inner peace is unmarked...and more importantly....unpaved. Start walkin'.
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Things I may never understand....Algebra. Nascar. Lying for the sake of lying. Greed. Not doing what you say you will do. Hurting other people--on purpose or otherwise. Living anything less than authentically. (I.E. pretending to be something you clearly are not). Blame. Irresponsibility. Immaturity. And Bitches....Things I may never understand. .

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Moral indignation is jealousy with a halo. ~ H.G. Wells

Jealousy is bad. Halo or not.....
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Religious people fear Hell. Spiritual people have been there. Rebels just keep going back! .

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...The world is not split into 'Good People' and 'Death Eaters'. Although maybe it should be. .

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...Sometimes, breaking hundreds of rules will get you hundreds of house points, if you know how to conduct your mischief. !

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You know what I love about Facebook? You can make friends or create enemies...make someone laugh or piss someone off...discover the truth or uncover a lie...all with one status. Equal Opportunity!! !

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...Being an adult is the worst idea ever. I'm just sayin'.

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...It's HOT. And since I'm not sitting oceanside...all I want to do is eat pudding and watch Burn Notice. Don't judge. .

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...PRAY. Pray for your own heart and those that you love. But more importantly and most earnestly...pray for those that hurt you, those that sincerely work to belittle and degrade you, those that walk everyday hand in hand with the Devil. Pray the most for them...Ceaselessly and Sincerely.

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...I would like to clarify my last post. Praying is important...but we must also remember that after all the praying...douchebags and bitches are still douchebags and bitches. You praying for them doesn't change that...it just changes YOU. .

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...Cold, rainy Sunday. Perfect for snuggling, napping, crocheting, and blueberry muffins. .
Lessons learned this week...Ups and downs. Ebbs and flows. Highs and lows. Such is the course of life. Hang on..love big..and enjoy the ride.
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...I don't need you to tell me that I'm a contradiction of myself. I'm already quite well aware of that truth......and it just so happens to be that I choose to embrace it, instead of spending my energy denying it. So there. .

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...Church today was a blessed mix of tears, communion, renewal, and redemption. Today I realized that I am not the person I WANT to be. I am not the person I was CREATED to be. I am not the person I have PROMISED to be. I realized that there is really nothing more important than the life I share with others. And I realized that love is alive and well and giggling in my kitchen. .
...I am going away to make a place for you. After I go and make a place for you, I will come back and take you with me. Then you may be where I am. You will know where I am going and you will know how to get there. John 14:2-3

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...I know you're jealous of me. I can feel it through the internet. .

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...Today's conversation:
Small: You know what would be awesome?
Me: No. What?
Small: If the world was made of jello. And all the animals were gummy bears!
Me: I would eat all the animals.
Small: Me too. And we would live happily ever after.

RIGHT?
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...Some shit is just uncalled for. .

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If you don't have the capacity to give, you shouldn't have the audacity to take.

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...ALL relationships..ALL of them..require you to be present and engaged. There must be give and take...and I don't mean YOU taking and EVERYONE ELSE giving. Let go of your control issues and trust the universe. Be a grown up. Relax. Compromise. Remain faithful. Tell the truth. Be who you are...authentically. Accept responsibility for your failures..and your successes. Apologize when you are wrong and forgive when you are right. Stop treating life..and love..like a competition. Release negativity. Respect yourself..so that others will respect you. And above all LOVE...when it's good, when it hurts...love everyone. Start with yourself. .

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Dear Insomnia....
We are not friends. So get your shit together.
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Me

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Hello again Insomnia. I thought it best to inform you that Bed and I have a hot date this evening. You weren't invited. Get. Your. Shit. Together. .

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.....Sigh...I got nothing......

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... forgiveness and love, cannot be earned, deserved, bought, sold, won, or forced. They are a gift and should never be taken for granted or expected. Only accepted...

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...how awesome to be aware of God’s presence, peace, power, protection and promise.....

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....Wizard of Oz was delightful. Remember everyone....hearts are not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others...so says the Wizard.

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"Buttlicker!"...."Really? That's where you want to go with that?" "No. That's where I'm FORCED to go with that. You forced my hand."

The epicness of this conversation is, and forever will be, legendary. XOX
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"The Devil invented Fruit Roll Ups."..."What?"..."Like. A. Boss."

What?.....all because I asked about a cute little fruit roll up craft. Which evidently cannot be attempted. Because Fruit Roll Ups are evil. XOX
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People inspire you, or they drain you - pick them wisely. Hans F. Hansen

How are you picking the people in your life? And when was the last time you evaluated the purpose they serve? Are they inspiring...or draining? Which are you? Be inspiring to others...and receive inspiration. And love. And couldn't we all use more love? XOXO
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Your tyrannical bullshit will not be tolerated any further. (per Lisa Bestie)

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Penguin says..."Watch this...Hold my beer!"

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I got to go fast. I am aerodynamically correct!!! Look at me go!!! !

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I read this today...and needed to share. For you Louper...my best friend is a reality check, reminding me how much I'm worth and believing in me when I don't believe in myself. .

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I love you dearest Louper. You are my bestest chum, my scary shadow, my fire starter, my spirits soulmate, my ledge talker downer, my sandy beach, my snuggle upper, my coffee spiker, my laugh out loud when I want to scream, my creative outlet, my rainbows and sunshines and unicorns and glittery sprinkles. You are my pink and purple and pretty...and you always will be. .

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Bagoodles and Gurbs. That is how much I love you. .

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Melissa Dahling, 
My life is so whumbo jhumbo without you. Awesomesauce has moved away and Whack is squatting nearby. 
Soooooo....here is the grocery list of things that we need in order to get Awesomesauce back!:
Vodka, Chocolate, Glitter, Duct Tape, Cat Suits, and Explosives. We can work on the Plan when you get here. Tomorrow...right?
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(Posted on Lisa Besties wall…just FYI)

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Have an AMAZING, FANTABULOUS, AWESOMESAUCE day!!!! .

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Pppppfffffffttttttttt. {That's me...sticking my tongue out at you.} .

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Thanks for loving me even when it's hard to do so. Hell, most days I want to thump MYSELF in the forehead. But you stick it out like a trooper...and only occasionally sass talk me back! I know it's tough, I'm hard to handle (and please), I clearly don't give thanks AND praise enough, and I girly cry on a whim. But, at the end of the day, I KNOW that you will be there (whether I deserve it or not)...and I am comforted and settled in the knowledge that our amazing little family will love me through it. (whatever the 'it' happens to be.).....and I'll be loving you right back. Just in case.
(Posted to the Hubs…in a rare moment of liking him.)

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I'm crazy mad at you...and crazy in love with you. But knock it off with the stupid bullshit......
(Me..setting the record straight. Like that ever works.)

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...Thank you for loving me when I haven't been very lovable (as in lately.). And thank you for not TELLING me that I wasn't lovable...probably would have shanked you. .
(True. He’s pretty good about that.)

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Life isn't perfect. But love doesn't care.

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They say that happiness is being married to your best friend. They also say that happiness is a warm puppy. Just wanted to let you know that I have tested both theories and have concluded that both are..in fact..true statements. I love you. .

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Today I love you more than Telemarketers love Dinnertime. .

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Life happens. Love helps. XOX .

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So there you have it. Random and Real. My life in a nutshell. Enjoy!


XOX