Gentle Nudging..

I listen to a lot of music. Random, eclectic, varied in taste...but A LOT of music. And usually I listen to the same music over and over and over....well....because I like it. I have listened to this song no less than eight thousand five hundred and twenty seven times...but TODAY it meant something to me. And it made me think of my husband. And for a moment...alone in my car...it made me cry. (Don't judge.)
This is why....I am HARD to live with. I accepted this fact many years ago. I am difficult, and temperamental, and moody, and mildly violent. (OK..maybe not violent...but certainly scary.). I know that I am demanding. I seldom give praise. I withhold affection. I rage and swell...much like an angry ocean. I fear everything and nothing. I am broken and flawed.
But even knowing all of this....he chooses to love me. Fiercely, fervently, forever. He chooses to calm my rage, quiet my rant, and soothe my rebellion. He chooses to settle my wanderlust. He chooses to offer affection. He chooses to anchor my heart. He chooses to love me. When I am unlovable. When I am ugly. When I am unreachable. He chooses.
And I am reminded that I am better because of him...because of US. I am better. WE are better. I am reminded that love wins. And I am reminded that we may be broken as individuals...but together...we have hope. And sometimes...that's more than enough.



                                    "All That You Are"

And I feel
All the faint morning light
Filled with hope
Cause you're here in my life
And we've gone
From the edge of our souls
Made it back to a place we call home
You... See me through
I was alone in the dark and the fear was my truth

Yeah all the things that you are
Beautifully broken,
Alive in my heart
And know
That you are everything
Let your heart sing and tonight
We'll light up the stars

All that you are

I feel wrong
I'm so human and flawed
I'll break down even though I'm still strong
And time... will make fools of us all
Build us up and then laughs when we fall
You... pull me through
When I'm alone in the dark and the fear is my truth

Yeah all the things that you are
Beautifully broken,
Alive in my heart
And know
That you are everything
Let your heart sing and tonight
We'll light up the stars

All that you are

Your the sound of redemption
The faith that I've lost the answers
I'm seeking no matter the cost
You opened the window now I can see
And you taught me forgiveness
By giving your love back to me

Yeah all the things that you are
Beautifully broken,
Alive in my heart
And know
That you are everything
Let your heart sing and tonight

Yeah all the things that you are
Beautifully broken,
Alive in my heart
And know
That you are everything
Let your heart sing and tonight

Let your heart sing and tonight
We'll light up the stars
All that you are

Oh, I feel... all the faint morning light
Filled with hope cause you're here in my life.

XOX